January 7, 2006

• “Blondie!”

  1st off, I like the luv (8 e-props) only after writing a one-sentence entry about how much I like Silk chocolate soymilk. =)

  2nd off, there has been a bit on the noggin these days. work has been interesting; I have been quite busy doing outside reading concerning a certain resident of mine. Been learning quite a lot of clinical stuff while at the same time, experiencing a lot of the first-hand frustration. When it starts to get too much, the thought of the end of next April comes to mind.

  I guess that’s what’s been on my mind the most. I could name a few people who are against the idea of my returning home (MD/DC). Thoughts of the past and the reclusive nature I embraced there, concerns me now. It’s no secret that while at home, I am Houdini. Houdini wasn’t a time-traveler though; I think about the reasons why I chose to stay in Boston during my summers after sophomore year at Brandeis U. I instinctively call this place “home” sometimes, and after family get-togethers while in MD, people look at me and refer to me as a “Bostonian” and mention how I’ve “made it.” I smile and thank them, but in the back of my mind, I know I haven’t. I continually want more and more and more…

  I demand a lot from myself and lately, I’ve had to come to terms with the fact that I sub-consciously demand a lot from others. And I never outrightly say what I want. Can anyone say “new year’s resolution?”

  And another thing is, maybe it’s time that I start to live less with the fear of consequences?

  After April 2006, I really do hope to leave Boston. I yearn for something different. Yeah yeah, I know MD/DC is not different. I grew up in the Metro area, but I think it’s time I either go back home or move to another city. All I know is that wherever I go, I’ll be able to live on my own and be able to do well. I’ve learned all the skills I need here.

  BTW, if you’re reading this 35 Waverly, you best stop calling me that!!!

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